One month off meds!
It’s been a month since I am off meds. A month without being worried that I have to take my pills. I can’t say that I miss it. On the contrary, I feel much happier and freer than ever. I was tired of popping bills by the hour, living a patient’s life. I felt it was about time for me to take control of my life and stop considering myself a sick person.
When the modern or western medicine failed to cure me, I was left without too many options. More precisely I had only two options: rely on pills for the rest of my life, which also meant killing my liver slowly, or stop the medication and let the illness progress at will.
Initially I thought that the first option was the correct one. I thought there was hope for me, that somewhere down the road; I would find some relief for my ailments. Unfortunately, two years later and it still did not happen. My symptoms escaladed and the quality of my life got lower.
When I hit rock bottom and saw I spent all of my life savings on meds that did not help, I realized thing had to change. I needed a new strategy; otherwise I was heading to a major disaster, not only financially speaking.
I had to choose between my meds and the house renovations which could not wait another year. I also had to buy two Outdoor blinds longueuil and redo my outdoor patio.
I dropped the meds because I couldn’t afford anymore. My plan was to keep my head up, be positive and Zen. It might sound crazy to you, but it worked for me. One evening I told myself that from the following day I will no longer be sick. In the morning, I woke up, looked at myself in the mirror and said loudly “I am feeling good. I enjoy my day. I feel amazing.”
I kept on telling myself positive things throughout the day and ensured I was not letting my mind think otherwise. This approach helps me go through the day without having any painful episode. I managed to keep pain away for a few days.
When it came back, I did not rush to the meds cabinet searching for a pill, nor tried to fight the pain. I embraced it. Not fighting back as usual, allowed my mind to cope with it and ignore it. Within half an hour the pain went away. I chose to focus on my work and totally disregard it.